egofreako
...that was my irc nick back in the day.
I am too egoistic. Was i the victim of some vile pishogue? Or maybe the father/son consubstantiality myth holds? Either way, I have to thank all of you for tolerating this overbearing ego of mine. Its disgusting I know. Id kick his(or her) ass any day if I could. Or murder it. Whatever. You get my point. But yes, thank you all for accepting me as I am.
On the same issue, talking to hongy made me realise something. Among my immediate circle of friends, those who are exceptional are usually LESS egoistic than those who are slightly above mediocrity. I hope I don’t sound insincere, but I sincerely think I belong to the latter category. Which leads me to ponder about causality.
Perhaps it is because I know I cant hang with the best that I am so egoistic. I have to portray this “great” me, and find ways and means of making people think im “great”. I think im so damn important and I try to make people concur. Me me me me me. Those who don’t have that insecurity, who already know they have nothing to prove, are less egoistic.
Right now, “ego” seems the most vulgar 3 letter word to me, especially if its pertaining to me. A self-admitted and self-disdained flaw. Ok enough. I feel sick about myself already.
Thanks guys, for not being entirely put off by my ego, as I am put off by others’.
Random thought: perhaps most bloggers are egocentric in some way. They tell people about themselves, what they think and feel, isn’t this ego manifest?
Let me tell you about ME. Here are a few of MY (supposed) attributes told to ME over the years. (which I remember)
Stylo. Yes I agree. Thankew very much.
Joyce and hong reckon I am (too) charismatic. A paradox it seems to ME. But anyway, I don’t think im one bit charismatic. At all. I wouldn’t find PIYAN charismatic if I were someone else.
Ming and aaron plus a few others reckon im a natural born leader. Well im not. If I were someone else, I wouldn’t follow PIYAN. Anyone (or thing) but him. Really. His a moron. And I don’t think people follow ME.
I think this is a very confused entry. Here I am bitching about how ego I am and denigrating all my supposed attributes. So I shouldn’t be ego right? I am sincere after all. But all of us know im ego. no diggity, no doubt.Perhaps the fact that this whole entry is centred upon me further proves that.
I am confused. and i am egoistic
I am too egoistic. Was i the victim of some vile pishogue? Or maybe the father/son consubstantiality myth holds? Either way, I have to thank all of you for tolerating this overbearing ego of mine. Its disgusting I know. Id kick his(or her) ass any day if I could. Or murder it. Whatever. You get my point. But yes, thank you all for accepting me as I am.
On the same issue, talking to hongy made me realise something. Among my immediate circle of friends, those who are exceptional are usually LESS egoistic than those who are slightly above mediocrity. I hope I don’t sound insincere, but I sincerely think I belong to the latter category. Which leads me to ponder about causality.
Perhaps it is because I know I cant hang with the best that I am so egoistic. I have to portray this “great” me, and find ways and means of making people think im “great”. I think im so damn important and I try to make people concur. Me me me me me. Those who don’t have that insecurity, who already know they have nothing to prove, are less egoistic.
Right now, “ego” seems the most vulgar 3 letter word to me, especially if its pertaining to me. A self-admitted and self-disdained flaw. Ok enough. I feel sick about myself already.
Thanks guys, for not being entirely put off by my ego, as I am put off by others’.
Random thought: perhaps most bloggers are egocentric in some way. They tell people about themselves, what they think and feel, isn’t this ego manifest?
Let me tell you about ME. Here are a few of MY (supposed) attributes told to ME over the years. (which I remember)
Stylo. Yes I agree. Thankew very much.
Joyce and hong reckon I am (too) charismatic. A paradox it seems to ME. But anyway, I don’t think im one bit charismatic. At all. I wouldn’t find PIYAN charismatic if I were someone else.
Ming and aaron plus a few others reckon im a natural born leader. Well im not. If I were someone else, I wouldn’t follow PIYAN. Anyone (or thing) but him. Really. His a moron. And I don’t think people follow ME.
I think this is a very confused entry. Here I am bitching about how ego I am and denigrating all my supposed attributes. So I shouldn’t be ego right? I am sincere after all. But all of us know im ego. no diggity, no doubt.Perhaps the fact that this whole entry is centred upon me further proves that.
I am confused. and i am egoistic
2 Comments:
yes dear... i agree tt piyan is a moron =p
wa.i tot i cld ignore that. but 2 on 1. ok. im not a moron nimore. 1 more comment n ill edit e post haha
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